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"Rosa" by Cynthia Ozick [Jul. 25th, 2008|11:29 pm]
my_kinderbueno
"I'll walk you."
"No, no, sometimes a person feels to be alone." "If you're alone too much," Persky said,"you think too much."
"Without a life," Rosa answered,"a person lives where they can. If all they got is thoughts, that's where they live."
"You ain't got a life?"

Someone isn't online now since he's out so there's no one to entertain me tonight ):
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Where Is The Love They Claim To Have? [Jul. 26th, 2008|06:33 am]

runningriot_
[mood | horny]
[music |Happy - American Hi-Fi]

I just came home in a lousy mood, and I was thinking, "Well at least it's Friday,"
THEN, it just dawned on me that it's Shit Day tomorrow.
Oh what fun, oh what joy! I really, really can't wait to sit still for 4 hours straight and clap hands for people I probably don't know!
All right fine, I'm kidding. Kudos to you if you set aside some time to contribute.

I have now returned to the state of being emotionally detached so don't come near me.
I'm so sick of myself, I think I'm mildly bipolar. Or maybe it's some split personality shit or some extreme PMS.
And to think laoshi thinks I have ADD (WTF) And Grace agreed (WTFF)
Oh of course I don't. Maybe I'm actually really just completely normal, hormonal raging, who happens to be confused with herself.

Today's a nice day :) I mean the weather mostly, actually. I like it cold :)
I think hot days give you a great mood to work out and cold days like this just make you wanna snuggle up somewhere :)
Lessons were okay, I think I do good! Except in chem :( I need a new tutor.
My previous one dropped me, she chose her church commitments over me which is, of course, very understandable.
Yeah, I do need a new tutor. There's no fucking way in hell that I'm gonna spend time with The Freak aka Smelly-Thinks-She's-Pretty-But-She's-Really-Not.
Haha I complained to Genelle about The Freak and her disgusting overpowering perfume and she was like, "So mean!"
Wow!!! Never thought I'd hear something like THAT from HER! :P

Ryhan and I played this blindfold game today where we'd walk around with a blindfold.
We used my bandana, the eagle one, it looks so cool doesn't it??? :D Well it's mine, duh B-)
I've always liked such games, but this is a real eye-opener (how ironic).
It makes you feel so vulnerable and helpless... Especially when your guide runs off and leaves you behind >:(
I'm so thankful I've got eyes to see. I'm so grateful. I can't imagine what life would be if I'd really become blind.
I'll be so lost and distraught, probably to the extent that I don't wanna live anymore.
See we're so lucky to be able to "play" this like a game. What about the truly blind?
But it's such a funny game, even though I got touched/tapped/spanked all over and tickled and even sexually harrassed by Claudia >:(

Asilah bought this kiddy fish game and I can't believe I paid half of it!!! Haha.
Silly game, especially the loud music! LOL :)
I'm really good at it! I think, I think I can be a fisherman :D

Haha I think I really should grow up. Actually, I'm very matured when the occasion calls for it... Ask around! It's true.

Okay bye, I'm gonna finally watch my farenheit 9/11 DVD which I left rotting in one corner for a million years
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A thousand words that I don't need [Jul. 25th, 2008|07:06 pm]
my_kinderbueno
When did you start keeping your promises?

Anyway TGIF, even though there's still Speech Day/Founder's Day in school tomorrow. OMG, martial arts yo, I'm so excited. Oh and,  HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARC!! <3

I'm trying to kill time now because I'll only be going out for a movie later in the night. Maybe I'll be able to meet Sarah too, yay :) I seriously think there's something wrong with my stomach :( Sucks. 
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[Jul. 25th, 2008|03:10 pm]

alltheselove
TRM TRM TRM TRM.
NP interview on 28th July, Monday.
SP interview on 31st July, Thursday.

I have to prepare. Can't afford to screw up.
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[Jul. 24th, 2008|03:52 pm]

summerzone
HOT HOT HOT
why is the library soooo hot
gahhh
need
to
do
A
P
U
S
H
i just realised how many things i have to do do do do do do
anyway
so i met this person
and he's forever bored
quite interesting really.
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Soulja girl. [Jul. 24th, 2008|09:42 pm]

stillbetween
[mood | lazy]

Hahaha, Cleo is Soulja Girl.
Anyway....

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO (SLOW) CLEO!
You have been a wonderful blessing to Crescent, I really thank God for you.
And you are an awesome tuition buddy haha.
(Haha, most of what I want to say I've already smsed you haha.)
Thank God for you and your great big heart!

Jiaqi:
Don't lost heart.  What matters most is knowing that you did your best and you can look back on the day with no regrets whatsoever. I know it hurts and you're really doubting everything because of this, but this is one setback. You are stronger than this. And though right now it may not seem so, but you will become stronger in the end. You'll have learnt more from this experience. You'll grow in faith and trust. And wouldn't you agree that everything, all your hard work, all the team bonding, are priceless, immeasurable compared to the gold? It's an award that's temporal. But the friendships built last much longer than that. Remember all the blessings God has showered on you, don't forget them because of this. And remember, we're with you.

I don't know if that helped or if I just completely didn't make sense. My eyes are closing.

Before I go, days have been awesome, thank you God for all the amazing people in my life. Thank you, Potluck Club+ JFM for the laughter and amusement. Especially JFM and her itchy eyebrows and growing unibrow hahahaha omg. Thanks Shorty for talking, for caring. (: Thanks Hw and Celeste for the concern.

Thanks especially to Zuoen for being there. Don't be discouraged, I'll study with you k. Love you loads really. (: I bet you're thinking of me.
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I Expected So Much More Than This [Jul. 25th, 2008|04:34 am]

runningriot_
[mood | distressed]
[music |Ce Soir - Virginie]

What should I do with you then, ma cheri?
-

Relatively short day today, skipped reap to have lunch with Ry and As and now I'm home.
Lazy/lifeless day, I came to school with bloodshot eyes and looked drunk/had a hangover/rose from the dead.
Sigh, I didn't have a good sleep last night :( Tossed and turned in bed till probably 3+++am and woke up at 5++++.
Photo-taking today, fun but I'm so pissed off that after all these years, I'm still made to stand at the last row. :'(
I specially requested third row but was turned down >:(
Haha, roko roko (sp?) :)

PE today was full of shit, at least for the first half hour. Then it was fun :)

I'm so free now, I'm home early, I think Imma watch a DVD :)

OH what's the point of all these shallow gibberish and updates. I'm done here.

PS:/ This is funny shit but I HATE Genelle Koh she tells everyone that I should be a clown and join the circus >:(
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[Jul. 24th, 2008|04:09 pm]

alltheselove
Things never appear when you want them to, especially when you are in such a helpless state, they love to play hide and seek with you. Fuck, i need to find it sooon. It is so damned important or else i'll screw the actual thing in exactly one week's time.

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i'm apushin' [Jul. 23rd, 2008|04:23 pm]

summerzone
APUSH (pronounciation: a push)
definition: abbreviation for Advanced Placement United States History
comprehensive: intense course for students willing to sacrifice time, toil and brain cells
rumored to be able to improve one's SAT essay scores and thus essentially writing skills
(which btw is what i am deperately in need of)
(which, is also btw why i chose APUSH over American Lit Honors (another intensive and laborous course)
oh well
i havent updated for a while
right now
im in my  zen zone
where i actually study and get stuff into my brain
anyway
back to apush
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Let my life be a love song, a never ending love song. [Jul. 23rd, 2008|10:02 pm]

stillbetween
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Well, everyone around me has been urging and reminding me to study. Teachers waltz in and out of class with incessant, terrifying, reminders of the countdown to the dreaded Prelims. The class is in a manic rush every minute of the day. Rushing homework, doing Prelim papers, reading notes.

I confess that I am scared. I am scared out of my wits. And I'd probably pull out all my hair by Prelims and in five weeks I'd have no more hair to speak of and right after the last paper I'd most likely faint from exhaustion or something.

But my God is greater than my fear.
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I'm Sorry I Wasn't There [Jul. 23rd, 2008|08:05 pm]

runningriot_
[mood | happy]

I'm at my cousin's house now ha ha. It's my fav cousin's birthday :) Happy birthday :) She's 12-years-old now :)
I'm like the eldest amongst my cousins :|
I love her to bits :) She's adorable :) She's the only one who stands my singing and only one to even tell me that I sound good :)
I really love her :) She's the sweetest, sweetest little girl you'd ever find. Please don't grow up too soon... I don't want her to change :( I think she's gonna, just like her sis :( I totally forgot her birthday today until 6pm, when I frantically rushed around the house to grab stuff and her present and cabbed there haha. She forgave me :) She didn't even blame me :)
Happy happy birthday :) I love you very much :)



My other cousin (her sister) is now writing Korean words on my lappy...... What's with the Korean craze??? I don't understand. And yes, I do admit that French is very cliche and overrated even though I would like to think otherwise, ha ha.

Today was a pretty good day. :) Even though it rained in the morning... But then again it wasn't so bad :)
I think I do like rainy days afterall :)

Skipped mock to get some ice cream at MOF with Brenda and Ryhan after school ha ha!
They're so funny and such good company, I love them :) I do love good company :)
So I skipped mock. I mean since I didn't study for it, what's the point?
In Mrs Chia's words, "Don't you feel so bad when you take a test without being prepared?"
Ha, I'm not gonna take a test in full knowledge that I'd fail.
I really love ice cream :) My only friends are Ben and Jerry :*

I love school :) I love my friends :)

I love 4S3 :)


Haha blogging is so fun, why did I ever stop! :)

ㅑ'ㅡ 내 뭏교 쟈소 ㅡㅛㄴ딜 >:(
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[Jul. 23rd, 2008|05:22 pm]
my_kinderbueno
[music |Amazing-Janelle]

"She says nothing at all, but simply stares upward into the dark sky and watches, with sad eyes, the slow dance of infinite stars."
—Neil Gaiman, Stardust
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[Jul. 23rd, 2008|08:35 am]

runningriot_
[mood | hyper]

I wanted to blog this yesterday but I was soooooooo groggy, I saved it as a draft instead without realising ,ha ha ha. Then I slept at..... Oh this is hard, Nine.
Well personally, I don't think it's that bad at all but apparently I got mocked for this >:(
I thought it's normal to sleep whenever you feel sleepy, that's WHY you sleep in the first place (rolls eyes)

Yesterday,

Racial Harmony today! :)

 Photobucket

I don't have the pictures it's all around everywhere ha ha.
I wore a sari ha ha, I wanted to wear a toga but I can't find one. I'm soooooo in love with ancient Greece!
I'm soooo in love with Sparta!!! :) Since, forever.

Today's quite a lousy day in a way. It was raining for so long, so dark and gloomy and wet and muddy. Ugh.
I changed my mind. I don't like rainy days at all. At least not when I'm not ready to enjoy them, like today (rolls eyes).
I wasn't in the mood for anything. Monday blues for once, what a contrast to the usual.
So yeah I'm pretty lifeless today and some could tell, apparently I'm not a good clown, I'm not good at masking my emotions :(
Let's hope that tomorrow will be better.

Well then again we played chaptek outside the class, so fun I like it :) I'm chaptek champion oh yeahz :)
I shall return the one we used to the library and buy one for myself and play everyday. :)
I love chaptek :) I hate rainy days. :'(

Blah blah blah I'm very tired and upset and dizzy and not exactly in a great mood right now so I'm not blogging anymore.
Furthermore it keeps raining and raining and RAINING I HATE IT.
Rain, rain, go away, come again another day, when I'm in a romantic mood 4 u.

Here's Today
It didn't rain today and there's no mass run, too :) Haha that reminds me of winyan, she squealed in delight so early in the morning at the announcement and said she "prayed so hard" for mass run to be cancelled/for it to rain LOL!!!! She's funny huh :)
I'm pretty pleased with myself today, I was quite attentive during lessons :)
Emath mock was soooooo easy peasy I hope I get full marks :) I'm gonna finish the Shinglee distinction whatever green book soon and shock everybody >:) And get all correct too >:) Am very excited >:)

OKAY i shouldn't blog so much, I should study now. Bye. :)
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[Jul. 22nd, 2008|06:24 pm]

alltheselove
Am hungry, miss the thai food at Yhing Thai Palace i had on saturday night, hahaha. It has the best thai food in town, better than BaliThai.

Good food = expensive food. Proven (well, most of the time).

My internet explorer is forever popping advertisments out, plus, mozilla isn't in my com, so here i am, using the super kewlz Safari browser that came together with my iTunes download. Kk, it rockz, it makes the webpage look especially nice with fonts that are bold enough. I LIKE, HAHAHA.

KINEMATICS TEST TMR, PLEASE, NO MORE CARELESS MISTAKES!!

Okay, byebye.
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I'm learning to fall [Jul. 22nd, 2008|06:08 pm]
my_kinderbueno
Happy Birthday Matthew :)
Happy Birthday Anthony :)

Scream my lungs out and try to get to you,
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Racial Harmony Day [Jul. 21st, 2008|10:16 pm]
my_kinderbueno


I'm trying to upload the Racial Harmony Day pictures on my facebook now but it's taking ages ): Boo, I'll just have to keep waiting and waiting and waiting till the upload is completed so then I'll be able to post the link here :) I'm just too lazy to upload every picture on photobucket. There's still more pictures with Sarah and Catherine though.

I regret not going for BOB this year, sort of. I did not know that you were performing ):Such a waste manzxz.
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Facade [Jul. 21st, 2008|09:03 pm]

strayedshadows

I am becoming more disorganised my room is in a mess with my bags under the bed and papers + books covering the table top ... I cannot stand it I shall have a cleaning session for the room tonight / tomorrow. I want to talk to you so badly but it seems as though you're pushing me away, and I'm not sure if you've got problems of your own so I guess it's best if I just shut up and not rant at all. I have a terrible headache and I want to cry.

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"Next stop, next stop" [Jul. 21st, 2008|04:12 pm]

alltheselove

Saturday 190708



Am two days late, but still have to update about FOF 2008 (Fun On Foot) cause it's something that i enjoyed so so so much. Really dreaded having to wake up so early on a saturday, but since i only do that like once in a blue moon, i treated it like any other normal school day. Hahaha met up with Foong, Zhi Hao and G and we headed to Suntec. Was almost late (all thanks to Zhi Hao, tsk). Got the booklet thingy and started to find and figure out the unknown places. The clues they gave were still as vague as ever -.- If i did not remmeber wrongly, FOF 07 was easier to figure out than this year's. So you see, this year's places were quite alien to me, at least. Commonwealth, Serangoon, Balestier, Sixth Ave, Upp Bukit TImah, Hill St and Stamford St area. How alien can it get, not places that we go to often enough (except Sixth Ave and Upp Bt Timah) hahahha. Surprise surpise, there is a temple and mosque hiding amongst all the big huge pretty bungalows and houses in Sixth Ave. Spent a very long time walking walking, admiring beautiful houses with pool at the second level. Sigh, we hate rich people. Hahahahah. Shall not go into much about the other areas cause it was so amusing yet annoying. HAHAHA. Went to Newton Circus but it was the wrong place so we decided to have our lunch there before continuing. You could tell that we were on the verge on giving up already, hahaha. With foong constantly telling us "Go back suntec, go back suntec!" (fyi, suntec is the meeting and ending point). I think we did okay, average, lol. At least we completed almost half of the 24 stops. Okay, i think it is almost impossible to complete all the 24 stops within like six hours? Unless you have private transport and you know the place inside out upside down. Quite a task, hah. 

THE BEST PART AFTER THE RACE IS.........

WE HAVE LUCK, BUT NO FATE. 

Sigh, if you get what i mean. It has been bothering me since i heard the news. Very *($)(#*$&*$@#)&^@#)@#. So the after-race story goes like this:

We headed back to suntec at 2.30pm sharp, handed in the booklet thingy, got out goodie bags (happy people already), got the certificate of completion and 4 lucky draw forms. So we sat together with the other Newtowners and started ransacking the goodie bags, as well as filling up the lucky draw form. Cause i had to collect my retainers at 3.30pm at my dental, i had to leave around 3 to be on time. So we dropped the forms into the box, not having the thoughts of winning at all. AT ALL. Then we left (the 3guys went to town and me, to dental).

At around 3.15pm, i got a message from Ian saying that i won the lucky draw. No, it isn't just any consolation prize or second prize or third prize, but the grand prize. So lucky, right? But but cause i wasn't there to collect the GRAND PRIZE SO IT WAS FORFEITED *#$Y()#*$&)#*$(@# GOD. AHHAHAHA. Totally, shocked. And best of all, the grand prize is a Pioneer (Blue Ray) Home Theatre System or something close to that. Can you imagine how huge that loss is!!!  A THEATRE SYSTEM THAT COULD BE SOLD FOR THOUSAND/S!!
Okay, after some time, i have accepted the fact already, and so have my team members. SIGH.

Speaking of retainers, the thingy on my teeth that cost me the home theatre system, they suck alright. Just imagine a plastic, made to cover your teeth perfectly. I can never eat with them, or even speak properly. TWO YEARS MAN, TWOOOO YEARSSSS WITH THIS PLASTIC THINGEYEYY.

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tears [Jul. 20th, 2008|11:43 pm]

summerzone
i swear i will not cry anymore
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crashing [Jul. 20th, 2008|10:43 pm]

herbalistaffair



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